Friday, May 27, 2005

A Platform for Transformation

Has anyone missed my writing? Well, it doesn't really matter. I miss writing. Work has taken a toll of me lately... Took a lot of my time too. That’s why I haven’t been blogging for a while now. Hard to believe when my work is to focus solely on documentation - attending meetings and recording minutes. How hard could that be?

I used to think my job was easy, useless, and unnecessary... Sometimes when I sit around the meeting table, I feel so insignificant. My colleagues' minds move so fast that even though you could hear every word they speak, you can't really understand it... I try to grasp it all, but soon find myself placing a sweet in my mouth to keep me awake.

These 2 weeks have been very hectic for this project officer (that’s my job title). There were like 6 full-day meetings – 9.30am-6.30pm… Last night it lasted till 8pm, and for the first time in my after-teenage-crisis life I feel so stressed. So many minutes to prepare, yet too short a dateline; So much to learn, so little time to understand… I used to be so bored in the office, wishing to attend a meeting and constantly making trips to the bathroom to waste the time away… Now I miss my table dearly.

So anyway, there I was again… Sitting among professionals, writing down whatever I can understand, fading away whenever I got lost… feeling insignificant again when suddenly HOPE came in the room. Why wasn’t I in front of a computer editing some video?__ Why wasn’t I shining God’s light through my gift of writing?__ Why was I stuck in a place I don’t want to be?__ Why was I wasting my time?__ Why was I restrained from running with my God-given dream?

I get it now. Looking back at time, I find that God has been molding me… through it all. I’ve learned to appreciate. With so little time and so much to do, I couldn’t afford to describe, explain and elaborate on the unnecessaries. I could only say what’s important… Quick praises, good thoughts… no time to judge, no time to compromise, no time to procrastinate.

It’s amazing how God can use basically anything as a platform for transforming our lives. It has been just a pit-stop, people. Now I’m running with better focus, more love for others, greater knowledge of God’s love and His purposes.

Have you been in a place that you totally don’t want to be and you feel like you’re wasting your time? Open your eyes, look up to Heaven, and listen to His voice. You might just be standing on His platform of transformation.

**Want to take this chance to thank all those minutes-writers. You’re EXTREMELY IMPORTANT!!


Anonymous said...

this is one of the stage that we need to proceed after our sweet youth day..we need to be facing the pressure of working,this is what we dont understand while we was children..

this is next stage of life for u,joash..continue to shine for HIm through your job..He wants to mould u to be His wrestle..


So I Go said...

great post..

"It’s amazing how God can use basically anything as a platform for transforming our lives."

i love that. keep writing and keep exploring.