Monday, April 04, 2005

More of You, Less of me.

Donald Trump gave a great advice – “Don’t ever lose your cool, unless you want to achieve something by doing so.”

I hate losing my cool. It makes me look so stupid, it’s a waste of time and energy, and it only shows that there’s still much pride in my life. Furthermore, nothing positive was achieved. I disappointed God, my friends, people who look up to me, and myself. I’m extremely disappointed with myself, considering all the promises and the ‘never-ever’ statements I’ve made to myself. Why do I have to get all defensive when confronted with an accusation? I hate needing to defend myself, because I’m lousy at it. It’s so pointless, really, because there’s always be two sides of the story. The past can be altered in so many ways!! It’s not like we can watch our lives on a videotape and say, “Look!! I told you so… This is what really happened!!”

I make a point to not respond or react to accusations anymore. So if you know me, please remind me to keep my cool. I so thought I had it together already… foolishness!! I’m also working on not accusing others’ actions before knowing the entire story. I want to treat others the way I want others to treat me. Give respect to gain respect, give grace to obtain grace…

I think that again, it’s down to the problem with pride. I’m still upset with myself over it. I guess it’s another reminder that I need to depend on God’s guidance rather than my own wisdom. I’m not doing any good remaining the way I am. My righteousness is like a filthy rag.

John 3:30 (The Message) - This is the assigned moment for Him to move into the center, while I slip off to the sidelines.

More of You, less of me, Lord. Please…

Isaiah 64:6 - We are all infected and impure with sin. When we proudly display our righteous deeds, we find they are but filthy rags. Like autumn leaves, we wither and fall. And our sins, like the wind, sweep us away.

John 3:30 (Amplified Bible) - He must increase, but I must decrease. [He must grow more prominent; I must grow less so.]

Change my heart, oh Lord
Make it ever true.
Change my heart, oh God,
May I be like You.

You are the potter,
I am the clay.
Mold me and make me,
This is what I pray.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Joash, Well analysed, well said. I could have written this about myself.

A note to other commentors: If you are a commentor, please have the wisdom of not putting names.

Anonymous said...

=) You're able to connect readers to your emotions and inner conflicts.. Like I can feel how you feel. Not bad at all...As you avail yourself to His cause, may you connect the heart of the readers to His heart's intent. Am encouraged by this website.

-RaYcHeeRachE- said...

This is really true!! But I think you keep your cool pretty well.. Don't worry.. You're doing good.. =D

Lemuel Yee said...

What anontmous?... too chicken to let people know who u r izzit?... Sometimes we like to hide behind anonymity (is tht how u spell it?) because we are afraid that if that we are unable to talk it but not walk it... furthermore I don't believe in this whole post-modern privacy thing... quite frankly i think it's against the Bible's principles. Why?

Now don't get me wrong, all of us need some space. But are we not all part of a family? In my church, some youths tell me they don't want to share their problems with me because it's personal. Then what happens to the part of the Bible where it says that we are all part of the same body, and that if one part suffers so does the other(s)... here I was nicely suffering for something which I didn't even know, I knew this person(s) had problems but I can't help, only thing to do was to pray. But God is great and faithfulness is one of his many wonderful traits and this year, 2005, many are opening up to me... and when they did they blew me out of the water! some told me that their parents were criminals, some told me about how they felt their parents didn't love them, some told me how their dad were abusing the mum, many told me they were emotionally abused, etc. Thank God for his wisdom. I learned to shut up and listened... at the end of these conversations they always thanked me. and I thought to myself... what did i do? ioffered no help, no suggestions/witty ideas but a listening ear...

people learn to listen, especially leaders! Leaders like to cast vision, it's in their blood, it's instinctious to leaders, but people will only buy the vision after they buy that person... believe it! don't learn the hard way, the easy way is now offered.

Now don't be afraid to share your deepest thoughts/feelings with someone who you trust and respect. Don't simply go around telling everyone about your stuff... really some people couldn't care less, really. Some might also use the information to take advantage of u or other person(s). do it wisely. Joash would be a person you SHOULD open up to. it's your priviledge/resposibility. Remember that James told us to confess our sins to one another? it talks of accountability. Not just your sins, but how are we to rejoice with those who rejoice and mourn with those who mourn? unless we let one another know what we are going through, thick or thin, good times or bad times (sounds like marriage vow!). but that's how it is. how much are we committed to the next brother/sister? Joash is committed to all of you, even to me he is committed. That's why he's not afraid of starting a blog and just be transparent with many things, and i'm sure if u talk to him he'll tell u even more. He's not worried about other's expectations/pressures (and i really understand Joash's feelings as I go through identical experience, ask him, he'll tell). So watch and learn from his life as he opens up his life to all of you it is not for you to judge but for you to learn from. yes, he WILL make mistakes, learn from those too. for those whom Joash trusts correct with LOVE( <--essential ingredient!!!)

well... just a thought for you guys to consider....

... and i thik i should start my own blog.... Sorry for spamming Joash... I will let u all know when my blog is up, if ever....

LEMUEL YEE

Anonymous said...

Well said Joash, I'm turly encouraged by your sharing n would like to add this thought provoking two cents's worth :-

"Be real - get connected - believe - move on"

Joash Chan said...

First of all, I want to thank you for giving encouraging words. I wish to clear the air... I would love it that you leave your names. Just make sure you don't put others' names in your comment, as it is not ethical to do so... Gossiping mah... If you're commenting, please let me know who you are... Thank you