Wednesday, January 11, 2006

It's that feeling again.

My spirit was really troubled this past Sunday. I couldn't understand why at first. I mean, I do know why I was feeling a bit upset that Sunday. Things happening around didn't really please my eye. But there was this feeling inside my spirit that I couldn't figure the cause for...
 
I completed the usual tasks of mine and headed to the corner of the santruary, where youth service will commence soon. My spirit was still troubled, so I became quiet before God. Stopped trying to figure why I was sensing such sorrow, just let the Spirit do the talking. It didn't take long before I came to a realisation - So much has not changed...
 
So much hasn't changed, and most of it has to do with me. God has done so much to assist me along the way, but somehow I have not experience the breakthrough, the personal revival I need. Not enough discipline, not enough passion, not enough initiative, not enough love... I have not done my part to the best of my ability. I let myself down, I let the people God has placed in my life down, I let the Dream-Giver down. I keep blaming and pointing fingers for how things are now, but I forget that I am also responsible in building the Kingdom.
 
Yes, things need to be changed. And that change has to start with me. I remember saying that before... I'm the biggest hypocrite I know. So help me God. Thank God for grace.

5 comments:

curious servant said...

Good start.

So I Go said...

yes.. good start indeed.
i'm with you though, thank God for grace.. without it, where would we be?

sbanboy said...

Hey bro .... as long we are still on this earth ... we will struggle .. u r not alone ... we are just passing by .. someday we will see Him face to face.

The best part .. He loves us so perfectly.. all He wants is our hearts...

Let's run and finish this race ...

Gina said...

I love that there is a common discontent among many followers of Christ. God is obviously doing something. Can you feel it? It's so exciting to me. Let God use this discontent in all of us to bring unity and the Kingdom among us here on earth.

JeffGeorgia said...

Psalm 18:27 - You save the humble but bring low those whose eyes are haughty.

Keep searching G-d.